Twin Tested Life

I’ll never get over this.

There are moments when both of my babies need me at the exact same time. You feel so divided between the two. I have to choose who needs consoling more because halfway holding both of them only makes things worse.

They both need all of me sometimes.

There are moments when I have to step out of the room with one baby still crying so I can try to calm the other down. Then I switch. And repeat the process. Every time, it hurts.

I try not to think about what this would be like with only one baby. I catch myself going there and I keep saying it over and over. I hate thinking that way. I love my boys. I needed both of my boys in my life.

I just hate having to divide myself when they need me the most.

It doesn’t happen often, but when it does, it stays with me. I tell myself it will be better when they are older. I hope it will be.

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